sit with that

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you say you want to be aware
well pay attention

i am here

turned to you and smiled
interrupted your conversation
chased you around the block
shared your story

surprising you

served you dinner
took you to a new place when you were lost
where you needed to be
cried with you
that difficult conversation
the admiration of the one that beholds you
and introduced you

listen
stop trying to be aware of me
i pay attention to you
always

sit with that

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